Most mornings, as soon as I wake up, I feel the pull of my phone. On a good morning, I reach for some paper and a pen insteadshopee, turning on the lamp and scooting back against the pillows so I can prop the paper against my blanketed knees. I grab an index card on which I’ve already copied out the poem I’m memorizing, and, looking at my own shaky handwriting, prepare to copy it again. I write it out, three or four times, enough so that I know it by heart.

I started memorizing poems in the spring of 2020, when I would begin my day by turning off my iPhone’s jarring marimba alarm and start scrolling through notifications: news alerts, texts from distant loved ones, air-quality warnings in Oakland, work emails and Slack messages from co-workers. My mornings began with a monotonous dread that would persist throughout the day. When I tried to read a novel or watch a movie, I’d be drawn back to my phone’s pinging litany instead. The iPhone had turned my mind into a version of a notification screen, and this tumult swept me up, subordinating my moods and mind to its whims. It’s hard to remember how my brain worked before it, but I imagine that even without the technology, I’d have a mental list running: Whom do I need to respond to? What have I missed? What do I need to do next? Memorizing a poem first thing in the morning became a way of attuning me to a different logic.

Before 2020, certain aspects of poetry — how it often communicated mood rather than plot, how it required slowing down — frustrated me. In the shadow of the pandemic, though, those same qualities suited my anxious mind and fractured attention span. Shorter fiction and verse felt easier to lose myself in: I would immediately become immersed in a different reality, calmed by it, even, before starting the day.

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During one of those unsatisfying Zoom happy hours that passed for social interaction in 2020, I shared a poem that reminded me of a lighter version of myself: “When I Tell My Husband I Miss the Sun, He Knows,” by Paige Lewis. Hearing myself read it aloud gave me a way to communicate emotions to my friends (and myself) that otherwise felt distant: silliness, tenderness, trust. In the poem, the speaker and her husband combat malaise by using bedsheets to play what they call the “shadow game”: “He paints my name/across the floral bedsheet and ties the bottom corners/to my ankles. Then he paints another/for himself.” By reciting Lewis’s words, I became a version of myself who perceived the world with a sense of playful possibility. If reading short stories offered an efficient way to forget the world I was living in, reciting a poem gave me a different way to move through it. To hold onto that feeling, to be able to summon the mind-set of Lewis’s poem whenever I needed it, I decided to memorize “When I Tell My Husband … ” by writing out a few lines every morning before I turned to my phone. When I walked through the aisles of Berkeley Bowl, wearing an N-95 mask and carrying my mom’s grocery list, I often thought about Lewis’s lines: “Stretch our shadows across the bed, we get so/tangled/My husband grips his own wrist,” I’d recite to myself.

After memorizing one poem, I moved on to others. By repeating the lines to myself, I could replace my own gloomy background noise with borrowed perspectives that seemed brighter, sharper: a playful confidence from Naomi Shihab Nye, an ambling grace from Jesse Nathan, the unshakable conviction of Adrienne Rich. That year, reality seemed inescapable and inalterable. But I could change how I thought within it.

Take the poem “The City Limits,” by A.R. Ammons. “When you consider the radiance,” it begins, before the poem soars and slows and soars again. There’s a physical speeding up and braking that I felt when I wrote out the lines again and again, a headlong rhythm that made me aware of my breath. When I memorized it, I spent time in the rushing lines and their resonant sounds, lending me Ammons’s wide-mouthed wonder at the everyday world: “the radiance, that it will look into the guiltiest/swervings of the weaving heart and bear itself upon them, not flinching into disguise or darkening.” And then, when I came up for air, to a reminder of how to see: “when you consider the radiance.”

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